I've never been outside of New England more than twice, both were
to Florida. I don't think much of it because I was really young; I figured I
would take more trips as I got older. Here I am, eighteen years old and
the only trip I've taken is to New York for a college visit. I always like to
think that traveling is fun, but in reality, I'm not a fan. Even trips to
Bangor can't beat out just driving around Bucksport, the back roads, windows
down.
So here I am, looking at this New York college
thinking to myself, "wow, I really like it here," but in the back of
my mind I'm thinking, "are you stupid? This is eight hours away, you can't
do this." The smile I had on my face slowly started to fade away, and when
we got back in the car the thoughts of getting away seemed less intriguing and
more frightening.
About a month later, I take a tour of
Maine Maritime Academy and I surprisingly loved it just as much as the New York
one! Both are great schools, both have great job opportunities, both have great
faculty, and both have great atmospheres. Now I’m torn between, “do I want to
get away and start over? Or do I want to stay close to home? I find out in a
couple of days if I get accepted to the college in New York, and I’m still at
50/50 with both. Some days I come to school and think, “get me out of here! I
want get away from this place.” but I know I'm just kidding myself. Other days, I could never see myself go because
I’m not the type of person who just packs up and leaves. I know whatever I choose my parents will
support my decision. So, is it time to fly?
Yeah, you're in a pickle. So what does your heart tell you? I am the youngest of eight grandchildren in a close-knit fam. I only left Maine once before I left for college. I got homesick when I stayed at friends houses overnight up until 13. You know where I picked? Vermont. I had to make myself leave my comfort zone or continue to be babied and rely on my fam my whole life. Hardest decision I ever made but also probably one of my best.
ReplyDeleteNobody else will know what's right for you, but I suspect you already do. Either way, just do it.
I definitely think this is a common problem among kids our age, I still don't think I know 100% what I want to do. You'll always have your doubts, but you just have to go with your gut feeling sometimes! Another great post!
ReplyDeleteI felt this way also! I HATE Maine, and actually love traveling! but there are sooo many things I am leaving behind. I decided to go to EMCC for this year and next, and I'm going to do my BIG schooling in California (I hope!). I live just once! I don't want anything holding me back! Take your time and you will figure it out!
ReplyDeleteI was stuck in the same situation. But I decided to stay in Maine for at last one year to prepare myself for the transition because, I know it wont be easy leaving my family. Good luck, I know you'll make the right decision!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad I'm only a junior!.,
ReplyDeleteI think most seniors who are being serious about where they want to go are having this problem. Sooner or later you'll figure it out but not matter what, I think there will always be a part of you that will say, damn should have gone to New York or damn I should have stayed home. It's all about growing up and we sometimes wait until last minute to realize it!
ReplyDeleteI think most seniors who are being serious about where they want to go are having this problem. Sooner or later you'll figure it out but not matter what, I think there will always be a part of you that will say, damn should have gone to New York or damn I should have stayed home. It's all about growing up and we sometimes wait until last minute to realize it!
ReplyDeleteMatt i know where you are going
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