Doesn't matter what I do

Recently got told that I act like I'm too good for anyone now. That was nice to hear. I've sort of been blogging from my inner self, things I don't like to talk about out loud. I feel like I can get whatever I want to say on paper or typing. I guess you're going to see another side of me, a pissed one. I hear these type of things sometimes from people you thought you were close to and think, "Seriously? Do you honestly think I am too good for anyone now? I am only going to associate with people that are just like me?" Then I laugh. Never ONCE have I expressed to someone that because I'm some sort of "star" quarterback or Mr. Bucksport or player of the year or whatever they want to say, have I held myself above them. The only time I hear about this stuff is when my friends jokingly remind me of what I've accomplished, which is fine with me.

I sometimes wish I could go back and do everything over again. Play an instrument or be on the math team or be in drama I don’t really care and just prove that no matter what I do, I'm going to be the best I can be at it. If I get rewards for doing something, I would like to hope my peers would support me as I would for them if they won something. Like honestly, winning Mr. Bucksport was a great feeling, but I'm not going to use it in any advantage over someone, that's not me. Holy shit, I'm sorry for trying my best and trying to achieve as much as I can before I leave this place. I think after all of this I don't want to be an asshole, just someone anyone can talk to, because I am just like everyone else. End of my small rant. Whatever, I'm going to remain just a youngin' on his grind.